It's Monday night ,and im posting my very first real article.
im tired.and i feel like everything is just wrong.
before when everything went wrong, i didn't think i just did it.
i just cut myself.my wrist.and it disgusted me to do so.
but i was finding it really difficult not to.it's crazy,yeah, i know,
but when you won't tell anyone how you feel the only way to pour your heart out
is to cut yourself.there's a certain feeling of releaf everytime.
''i hurt myself today,to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain the only thing that's real.'' -Johnny Cash.
but then i thought,come-on this is not right,you can't do that, you can't cut yourself.it's ridiculous.and rumors were spreding about me being an emo ,and cuting my wrist.And i hated that because i am ashamed of it.im ashamed of myself when i think of it.so i decided to stop.And i started taking some pills.the ones that releave from pain, but that take your happyness away with it.the ones i took ,have taken away my emotions.so im not sad.but im not happy.i talk but im not there.i laugh but i don't think it's funny.i just don't feel anymore.i don,t get mad at people anymore.when i take those pills i feel like im watching a movie.the movie of my life.but i don't act in it.and the worst of it all, is that those pills make me sick.they disgust me.they make me wanna throw up all the time.i hate those pills & those razor blades.i just wanna leave it all behind, because i am more intelligent than that.i should not give up like that...
im tired.and i feel like everything is just wrong.
before when everything went wrong, i didn't think i just did it.
i just cut myself.my wrist.and it disgusted me to do so.
but i was finding it really difficult not to.it's crazy,yeah, i know,
but when you won't tell anyone how you feel the only way to pour your heart out
is to cut yourself.there's a certain feeling of releaf everytime.
''i hurt myself today,to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain the only thing that's real.'' -Johnny Cash.
but then i thought,come-on this is not right,you can't do that, you can't cut yourself.it's ridiculous.and rumors were spreding about me being an emo ,and cuting my wrist.And i hated that because i am ashamed of it.im ashamed of myself when i think of it.so i decided to stop.And i started taking some pills.the ones that releave from pain, but that take your happyness away with it.the ones i took ,have taken away my emotions.so im not sad.but im not happy.i talk but im not there.i laugh but i don't think it's funny.i just don't feel anymore.i don,t get mad at people anymore.when i take those pills i feel like im watching a movie.the movie of my life.but i don't act in it.and the worst of it all, is that those pills make me sick.they disgust me.they make me wanna throw up all the time.i hate those pills & those razor blades.i just wanna leave it all behind, because i am more intelligent than that.i should not give up like that...